[lotus]

Hello fellow INTJs and other types,

In case you can't already tell, I'm an INTJ. I took the test for the first time a couple of years ago, and was floored by the accuracy of the results. Suddenly, so much of my life was very clearly explained.

I've had a rather difficult childhood in terms of finding friends with whom I could relate to, and, dare I say, considered to be intelligent enough to put effort into getting to know. Thus, I spent my childhood and early adolescence as a solitary outcast. I entertained myself with my own imagination, usually with my toys or making crafts. It wasn't until I met my best friend (an ISTJ) that I began to understand why I had such a hard time getting along with others.

Things got better with understanding, and I dived into building systems in my mind with the advent of junior high school. With the help of my best friend, I showed more of my INTJ-ness without guilt or apology. It got us both in trouble (mainly being accused of being potential-school shooters by some insecure classmates because we were just too ~different~ for their tastes) but it was overall a positive experience.

High school was even better. It was during my last couple of years there that my personality really began to shine. I would constructively criticize everything from social constructs and expectations, to particular teachers in the school. People listened, and I finally began to make a few friends. I felt as though my brain had exploded with understanding of topics that most peoples' parents couldn't comprehend. Eventually, my blunt thoughts caught the ears of our school's guidance counselors and principals, and thus began another surveillance, again, based on my "unique" and confident approach to things.

Now I'm in my third year of college, going for a computer science degree. :D In these past three years since I've started college, I have to say that I've mellowed out in terms of ranting and arguing like I did in high school. Don't get me wrong, I'm still every bit as much of an INTJ. I just learned when to speak, and how to phrase things more politely. I also noticed that INTJ females don't seem to get the same treatment as INTJ males, which amuses me. More specifically, I learned that "bitch" is very often used as a synonym for a strong, smart and confident female. I used to feel confused whenever I was called this word (and it happened a lot XD), until the day I truly realized what it meant.

So with that, I hope to meet and interact with people with similar thought processes who won't cower down with defensive insecurities in the middle of a civilized debate. I have around three INTJ friends, and several slight variants, but I still feel as though I don't know enough people with whom I share an equal footing.

<3!!

[curiousjane]

Welcome, Lotus.

While I am not of your "type", I am glad to meet you. These guys are amazing ... smart, insightful, witty, even (though they would never admit it) ... kind.

[pallasathena]

	More specifically, I learned that "bitch" is very often used as a synonym for a strong, smart and confident female.

How ironic that you call yourself Lotus. You don't seem to be delicate by your intro. Also, the word "bitch" is an acronym:

Babe
In
Total
Control of
Herself

Welcome to the forum.

[Lucan]

Welcome Lotus

I'm sure you will feel at home here. And may you bring interesting topics with. By the way its funny how you get called that many times by someone who has so many insecurities.

[notoppings]

Looking forward to your posts.welcome.

[rwyatt365]

	Originally Posted by pallasathena
	How ironic that you call yourself Lotus. You don't seem to be delicate by your intro. Also, the word "bitch" is an acronym: Babe In Total Control of Herself Welcome to the forum.

EXCELLENT!
Welcome to the forum lotus