[shaunmikex]

As the title reads....more info:

I have a distinct fear that people around me will either take advantage of me or harm me in some way. This combines with my natural love of being alone to create a very distrusting, alienated individual. As a result, I seclude myself until I feel able and energetic enough to part from the zone that I've invented for myself, while doing work that keeps me grounded in the current reality.

I have made an effort to become more social. I am currently on a hiatus from college even though I'm graduating in a few weeks (I'm particularly good at teaching myself), but I hate going to classes with people there. I can appear socialize as the situation necessitates, but it ends up being tiring and I wind up doing FAR LESS than I do alone.

Hmm i have made great strides since my past (complete loner), but I still feel the burnout effect that I need to avoid in order to learn (not in classes). Also, the allergy season has rendered it nearly impossible for me to leave without devloping flu-like symtoms...


Should I just stay home and do my work for the sake of my sanity or go in nonetheless? I am going to see my therapist no less.

A bit neurotic at the moment........

[ChaotixDementix]

Forget the therapist ....unless you cannot diagnose the problem within you. You need to avoid overthinking it shaun. Overthinking it will get you sick. You should live your life without extreme focus(aka strict means to reach your objective). Instead live your life with a loose focus centered at a goal. This can apply to your social situation... instead of isolating yourself.
You can try to bring one person into your world( but do not do it too fast). Ideally this person will be your best friend and you both must have a common interest that will unify you. Then little by little immerse them with your culture by gain popularity. (hopefully what i say helps)

[shaunmikex]

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Forget the therapist ....unless you cannot diagnose the problem within you. You need to avoid overthinking it shaun. Overthinking it will get you sick. You should live your life without extreme focus(aka strict means to reach your objective). Instead live your life with a loose focus centered at a goal. This can apply to your social situation... instead of isolating yourself. You can try to bring one person into your world( but do not do it too fast). Ideally this person will be your best friend and you both must have a common interest that will unify you. Then little by little immerse them with your culture by gain popularity. (hopefully what i say helps)

Thank you. I am indeed very strict with myself. Extremely focused is how most friends view me. I'm pretty good at getting most things, so I feel that in my early twenties, I should not be having these problems, yet they persist. I have close friends, but I don't share my entire self with them, if that makes sense. I have many interests..far too numerous to put into one place.

Therapists have largely been a dud for me. They normally wind up complimenting my self-exploration and vocabulary. I suppose this is to see how I take to compliments, which I don't with ease.

On the plus side, I am quite accomplished/driven for my age I suppose. I just feel as though I'm "loosing it" at times.

---------- Post added 04-22-2010 at 10:28 AM ----------

i really left out a lot of details...is there anyone who I can PM to talk to...all i'masking for here.

[me1]

I felt like I can completely relate to you, Shaun. I am very strict with myself too and extremely focused. But I don’t have the fear of people- even though I have been badly screwed over. I am a psych major- even I found (despite my previous beliefs and respect for therapy) therapy ineffective, despite my previous beliefs and ‘respect’.

To ChaotixDementix :- I really appreciate your respond. Thank you :D

[gius]

Don't feel bad. This is normal
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Why not go all the way and do exactly what you want... You don't even know yet what it will be like. You might like it, you might feel better faster also (this is my experience). And more freedom/independence. There is also the possible option for private lessons,, I guess it depends on what you are studying.

[Vermillion]

Sounds like the hedgehog's delima, being afraid to get close to others for fear of being hurt or hurting them. I don't have much advice other than just do what you want while being aware of the possible outcomes of your actions and trying to mitigate any negative consequences that could happen. With the proper actions, the probability of a positive outcome can be twisted to your advantage.