Thanks for calling me a trainwreck! Actually it was one of the best things I could have read on my thread. I have started to work on getting my shit together. In therapy actually for PTSD.....it's a good step forward! Anyway thanks again
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At the end of the thread I had an "Ophah Moment' breakthrough emotionally. This forum is very useful!