Do it! Go rent it from ur local video store right now!

Lol. If only the rewards in real life were as clear cut and attainable as leveling up in a game! ;p A Waking Life in indeed a movie, an awesome stream-of-consciousness, deeply philosophical, weirdly animated movie that I would highly recommend. It's one of those. Either it's life-changing or it's unwatchable. And people who love it tend to divide the world into people who get it (my people) and people who don't. (Kinda like Donnie Darko. And the The Matrix.) Well, that's what I do anyway

I completely agree. Or at least that's what I tell myself coz I used to think that at this age I'd have stuff figured out. Which I don't. But (from A Waking Life) the paradoxes bug me. And I can learn to love, and make love to the paradoxes that bug me. And on really romantic evenings of Self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion.

Perhaps it was a self-evident statement The world is FULL of people I don't want to be like But I find it particularly true in a work situation.

Haven't forgotten ya. Just been super busy! Don't want to appear rude, lol.

So we can find other introverts. The internet was a great development for heavily introverted people... We can still get the social contact we need/want, but on our own terms, and with people we're actually interested in.

I don't think it is necessarily ego driven - I just happened to get a little ego boost out of the whole process. And I don't really view ego as a bad thing in moderation anyway. =)
It wasn't my motivator, just a side effect. However, given that the "sharing" happens on a one-way fashion when you write, I do think that" imparting your wisdom" to others can be a bit of an ego-stroke in and of itself - for some folks.

Finishing stories is a struggle for me too. I have pages and pages of "seeds" (and tangents of those seeds) but only a handful of actual stories - and I don't ever feel they are truly finished, lol. Just finished enough to share in some cases! I tend to look at endings as one possible ending, rather than THE END. And just like music has remixes, I am pretty sure that most of my stories will end up with several versions before I feel they are truly "complete".

Keep at it. And if your motivation is to share - you might consider a blog or some other venue where you can get active feedback - use your writing to spark a discussion. It is something I have started several times, but don't have the staying power, lol. Or perhaps a writing group? I would love to do that, but live in a very small, very rural town and we just don't have fancy stuff like that! I just realized there are online writing groups - and that I should probably take my own advice, lol.

Happy Friday!

Thanks!

That is interesting as my intuition picks up cues constantly. It is a cacophony of non verbal cues out there for me

I like listening to INTPs most I think when there is a discussion with various types.

Do you think it would become bastardized, with the lyrical noise of people with nothing to say?

What do you write about?

I think you may have a point about the recoiling

Hmm.. I agree, do you like words as an expression? more so than other forms of expression?

Ahh... l am guilty of doing this to deflect so that I can think and feel more privately. I think the people that I am close with have full awareness of it. Agreed about asking about the "why" but some people do not seem to want to know why because that would require introspection of self instead of justification of self. Right is right in the apathy of superficiality.

My trigger I think was finding out I do NOT have cancer, which might seem strange.

I think my social anxiety is escalating right now.

Define sensor talk?

It does a little because I am testing the waters safely in my own environment and although uncomfortable I have the knowledge that I can stop it... So that creates a sense of calm rather than a tsunami of discomfort and trepidation. The next day (like today) I am completely burned out.

Are you socially anxious?

I don't like social interactions much, so if I switch up my own environment a little prior to them, the transition to it is less excruciating for me, internally.

Correction: I like to be around people but sometimes I would like to do so invisibly.:stealth mode:

Even want to go to a movie with someone and not speak to them in between really, I do not mean in a hostile way. Most people find silences uncomfortable.

Am I routined? I think not but of course I am, so if I know I am about to socially interact with someone not familiar with my personality I try to do things out of routine, subtle things but not everything. Where I put the towels when I shower, where I sit when I drink my morning coffee. Things that may cause me to be a little uncomfortable but no so much so that I go "numb"

Bisclavret, I am a little eccentric perhaps?

That sounds awful and painful, it good that it healed for you.

Interaction can be intense socially, even at the shallowest level. When I am working up to social interactions, I try shifts in my personal habits when I am alone throughout the day. I do not think I experienced any age crisis. Where you sick with your AI?

Yes, confidence allows for humility where arrogance simply doesn't

So why have you been a hermit for the last few years? You are a student I see...

I did have three short stories published - but it was published by a friend of mine trying to break into that business. Primarily, it is just a creative outlet/therapeutic device and someone wanting to publish it was just an ego boost. I am not sure that I would write for a living. My muse is so very fickle, lol.

If/when you feel ready, there are many many online magazines and what not that accept submissions for sci-fi (or any other niche, really). I do that sometimes with my stories if a call for submissions comes out with an interesting theme or something. I just don't vest a lot of energy in trying to "win".

I enjoy the challenge of writing poetry in general, especially when using predetermined styles or meters. But it also lends itself to being very concise, which is my natural writing style. The erotic fiction is more of a psychological challenge than a technical challenge, as I am not generally very open in that regard. It is a way for me to externalize difficult emotions so that I can deal with them in a more creative way. But even my erotic fiction often delves into sci-fi, fantasy and supernatural themes, so some of it is just fiction that has some naughty bits. I also like to do creative writing challenges - flash fiction, or specific themes. I just so rarely have time these days to write. I do miss it when life gets busy.

What do you write?