ha! Enjoy that surge of melatonin..or brain tumor..or whatever it is

Thanks! It is terrifying sometimes, but I don't know what else to do other than just plow ahead and through caution to the wind.

I guess I should, it's just that I lead with my emotions and doesnt that make my gut instinct completely irrational and therefore unreliable?

Thank you for taking the time to thoroughly understand the situation. Your comments are very helpful!

That is very kind of you because there is a book there. Please take your time. Thank you!

I think about what the harder of two choices is, and then often do the harder one. Eventually the harder roads get easier because you can't walk uphill forever. (Now, if only I can use that motto to finally go back to grad school, but I have so many interests, it's difficult to narrow them down. I will make a decision this year though - it is going to happen!)

Oh and what do I do? I work in publishing.

True, he couldn't win it all by himself. And I've heard stories about him being an asshole in real life. I still doubt that you'd kick him off your team if you were an owner or GM though.

I see captain america with a burning cross in the background

Aww. Thank you. I appreciate this post. You know, I have been meaning to mention it for awhile, but Plot was right when she said you have a good head on your shoulders, homie.

:D What do you see in your avatar? I see a knight and a steam-powered golem.

Duly noted

I replied to you. I am off to bed so if you do answer I won't be around to give any feedback until some time tomorrow. Have a good night, Velocitii.

I'm not over him but without some indicator that communicating with me would be welcome I'm unwilling to find out that it isn't. Thanks for chiming in in any case.

Haha!

No ----- sads!!! ;(

Don't give up! What worked for me after college is I started working HARD on my looks. I was frump, fatty little goth kid when I got out of college. I had had two long term boyfriends, but oe was goth, and was was a foreign exchange student from Turkey. Most Americans boys would not have dealt with me.

What worked for me was revolutionizing my life. I quit eating shit food. I read books on nutrition, at since I had never dieted before, I went on Atkins, because that is the easiest for people who like to eat. I also started doing cardio. Within six months I lost 20 pounds. I started tanning and learning how new makeup styles from magazines. Then I got rid of the long, black, gothy hair, and had a stylist make it blonde and short.

I also got rid of the thick goofy glasses (I'm farsighted) and went to an optometrist for contacts.

I had smoked since age 13, so I started chewing Nicorette and got Whitestrips for my teeth.

Also bought some new styles of clothes, much more current and pretty.

And boom! For the first time in my life, around age 25, people started calling me "hot"! I was frumpy, overweight, pale, wore glasses, had black hair, and imperfect skin before all that.

ProActiv helped too.

Generally, if you look nice, people will be attracted. I have no idea if this will help you at all, but that's what worked for me. And it wasn't fast. But I was committed to improving my odds for getting a good mate for the future.

Aww no! Don't give up! I have VERY similarly attrocious stories to this, and I believe in love 100%, love men, and love romance. Getting hurt just means your partner is human, human are flawed, none of us do our best all of the time. But when you really click with someone, and experience the bliss of love, it's ALL worth it!

The word you're looking for is authenticity

LOL thanks!

Made my day :')

You hit the nail on the head!