Super long day yesterday, but got lots done
Basically I don't feel comfortable talking about it or anything at length with you currently because:
I'm guessing you will just be argumentative, not open minded and constructive.
You haven't really done anything to improve the situation between us, so putting time into anything that could help you seems silly when that's really what you should be doing.
You mentioned feeling apathetic. I find that to be disgusting and dangerous; apathy is what enables people to do quite horrible things, including some of the things you say and do. You might want to work on that. Look around you at wars and see what that feeling fuels and manifests as in our world.