Borderline INTJ/INFJ

[dayguard]

From the tests that I take.... it generally shows that I am an INTJ but always barely on th T side. On the latest test that I took, the result was INTP but that's probably because I was at a phase of trying to be less judgmental towards others.

Been around in the forum for a while and feel that I am a little different from full blown INTJs. For me, it matters what I thought others think of me.

I just wanna hear from other borderline INTJ/INFJ experiences in life.

I'll start by saying that I can get emotional internally but my logic stops me from expressing them.

Growing up, I was yearning so much for my parents to express love to me but I did nothing to express what I felt I needed. My parents, not expressing their love is typical of Asians. However this culture is changing. My question is, especially to other T/F borderliners, do you guys think the borderline issue make people like me more screwed while growing?

Thoughts (and feelings) on this anyone?

[Paul V]

I probably used to be an F some time ago, when I was overly sensitive about everything, trusted people very easily and wanted to please them in every possible way. I wore my heart on my sleeve, as it usually said.

Then, I realised that I was only asking to get hurt (after many betrayals and backstabbings), and decided Logic was going to rule my every move, since feelings had only led me to a bad end.

And I'm feeling better now than I did then, though I do miss talking to people (probably why I joined these forums, it's safer here than in real life).

[dayguard]

I probably used to be an F some time ago, when I was overly sensitive about everything, trusted people very easily and wanted to please them in every possible way.
That was a huge block in my life as well. I was not happy with who I was. I felt I needed to be perfect before anyone could even want to be my friend. At the same time trying to express my feelings/thoughts was another challenge. That's the double whammy part of being borderline... or at least being me at that time.