Ordered Chaos
11-28-2010, 04:30 AM
I have been aware of this forum for some time and joined a while back but didn't have anything to say. I occasionally come here to try to acquire a better understanding of how people who have similar personality types to my own personality cope with the world as it is. Sometimes I get depressed with people and society in general, other times I become angry, and sometimes I feel nothing but total indifference; a kind of overwhelming apathy towards society and social convention. Sometimes I feel incredibly disappointed with humanity.
I see how far we have come since we were clubbing each other over the head in caves, to the widely accepted killing each other because we believed in a different invisible man than the other up to the age of enlightenment, to killing each other out of absolute hatred and bigotry during WWII. Though these ways of killing each other are no longer widely accepted around the world, they still exist. Where they no longer widely accepted they have been replaced with this overwhelming desire to dominate one another through materialistic wealth and political power. Killing is out (not as popular for our “civilized” cultures), so we have to do the next best thing I guess? I am, of course, excluding when we are at war with each other.
I'm just ranting through. I am a fully functional member of the society in which I live, but that doesn't mean I have to like it or approve of it. We have to deal with the cards we are dealt. The rules and laws of the society in which we live must be abided by because we live within that society; whether we fully agree with them or not.
I am a college student studying for a degree in Computer Science. I enjoy Physics, Biology, and, most importantly, Computer Science. I don't like being around large groups of people because I don't trust strange people in general. The more I see a person whom I am unfamiliar with smile for no apparent reason, the more suspicious I become of them. I don't like doing things for the sake of "fitting in" because, usually, the thing in question is quite stupid. I loathe insincerity and blind faith in something when it contradicts unquestionable logic and reason. Lying to oneself for the sake of feeling better emotionally is the ultimate act of betrayal to the self.
No more, don't want to TLDR you guys.
I see how far we have come since we were clubbing each other over the head in caves, to the widely accepted killing each other because we believed in a different invisible man than the other up to the age of enlightenment, to killing each other out of absolute hatred and bigotry during WWII. Though these ways of killing each other are no longer widely accepted around the world, they still exist. Where they no longer widely accepted they have been replaced with this overwhelming desire to dominate one another through materialistic wealth and political power. Killing is out (not as popular for our “civilized” cultures), so we have to do the next best thing I guess? I am, of course, excluding when we are at war with each other.
I'm just ranting through. I am a fully functional member of the society in which I live, but that doesn't mean I have to like it or approve of it. We have to deal with the cards we are dealt. The rules and laws of the society in which we live must be abided by because we live within that society; whether we fully agree with them or not.
I am a college student studying for a degree in Computer Science. I enjoy Physics, Biology, and, most importantly, Computer Science. I don't like being around large groups of people because I don't trust strange people in general. The more I see a person whom I am unfamiliar with smile for no apparent reason, the more suspicious I become of them. I don't like doing things for the sake of "fitting in" because, usually, the thing in question is quite stupid. I loathe insincerity and blind faith in something when it contradicts unquestionable logic and reason. Lying to oneself for the sake of feeling better emotionally is the ultimate act of betrayal to the self.
No more, don't want to TLDR you guys.