An emotional past?

[MissDistant]

I have read through a few topics here where a poster may have alluded to being rather moody, or overly sensitive in their past. Maybe as a child or throughout their teen years, but later in life this became less of an issue for them.

Personally, I recall being an incredibly tempestuous, outrageous kid, but became very emotionally unresponsive (and somewhat unaware) between the ages of 12 and 15. I used to vaguely wonder if I was astoundingly repressed and had the potential to erupt like the Krakatoa volcano. I doubt it.

My current theory attributes the emotional roller coaster from not having independence or lacking control in life. Once those things are gained, the ups and downs subside. I know it isn't that simplistic though.

I have also noticed a lot of members here (myself included) have noted being particularly sensitive to the external environment (noises, physical contact, etc...). I think it would all be related.

Any thoughts?

[Haphazard]

I'm still within that age range and I note that most of my anxieties come from other people having control over me, over what I do, over where I go, over what goes into my body, and honestly, it really scares the shit out of me. I keep threatening to the people who currently have control over me that I'll sever all ties with them as soon as I can support myself, but then they try to guilt-trip me. I've been accused of having 'anxiety issues' when most of these 'anxiety issues' come from these people doing something about these 'anxiety issues.'

I hope I feel better once I have control over my destiny, though I don't know.

I do jump at loud noises and sudden touches, and this provokes people to do it even more.

Sometimes, I really hate people.

[TheLastMohican]

I also am mainly bothered by my lack of control. It is not that big of a problem, but sometimes I end up in no-win situations due to the fact that my actions are at the mercy of others.


Sometimes, I really hate people.

And boy, does that come through in your limericks!

[DeadSpace]

Quiet, not very outgoing till around 16...16~22...completely wild. Calmed down abit, but on and off till 28. Burned out the most of the craziness from my system by then. Been pretty mellow from 30 to now.

[Homini Lupus]

Grotequesly quiet until 12, then more balanced and started maddening around 17-18 years, the happiest period being from 16 to 17 (quite strange since it's the time when normal people destroy themselves). I'm searching new balance since 22 but periods of extreme willpower (some would say workalchoolism) are still alterned with can't do attitude periods (the ones I hate the most). I'll have to become less dependant on external stimuli to completely mature. But yes, I hate phisical contact (expecially by males), unpurposeful noises, hearing voices that express emotions and seeing people petting one another.
I guess I have a victorian mindset about social behaviour.

[Motor Jax]

could it also be psychological also?

though the human body quits growing at around 18-20, the human brain continues to grow until 22-26 yrs old

and because it continues to grow, the neurons that make everything come together starts firing in disorder and also the chemical makeup is all screwed up

that could be a contributing factor

[Danneh]

I actually did have an emotional past, so I may not be the best one to base off. I was diagnosed with PTSD two years ago, so that may have a lot to do with it.

I was overly friendly, outrageously insane, and just wanting to know everything until about the age of 8-9.. For about two years I was still overly friendly, but more bookish and quiet. After hitting middle school though, I went completely recluse, in my little bubble that only allowed one or two people in it. Highschool, I talk to more people, but only because they want study help more than anything.

Loud noises don't bother me( I meditate at the local race track, so that may have a little bit to do with my ability to ignore them) but people trying to control me irks me. >< I have insane control issues.

Oh, and I'm like Haphazard. I really hate people, to the point I wish they'd die most of the time.

[Haphazard]

Oh, and I'm like Haphazard. I really hate people, to the point I wish they'd die most of the time.

Oh, I don't wish they'd die. They have every right to continue their lives... Faaaaaaar away from me.

The idea of in this house, there's constant movement by my room, shuffling on the carpet, opening and closing doors, cooing at the dogs, asking me tiny inane questions again and again and again like nobody understands the first time (or second or third or fourth), it's driving me insane, I just want to scream my lungs out, but there's no place to do that because everyone and everything is too damn close together.

I'm not a robot, I need my catharsis, but I never get any. Complaining on the internet is as close as it gets, and it can only do so much for me.

[Myrak]

I'm not a robot, I need my catharsis, but I never get any. Complaining on the internet is as close as it gets, and it can only do so much for me.

Totally agree. I'm in the same situation, same age bracket. Hugely lacking independence in my life, which frustrates the hell out of me. Can't wait 'til I can just up and leave it all behind, at least for a little while.

[Danneh]

Oh, I don't wish they'd die. They have every right to continue their lives... Faaaaaaar away from me.

The idea of in this house, there's constant movement by my room, shuffling on the carpet, opening and closing doors, cooing at the dogs, asking me tiny inane questions again and again and again like nobody understands the first time (or second or third or fourth), it's driving me insane, I just want to scream my lungs out, but there's no place to do that because everyone and everything is too damn close together.

I'm not a robot, I need my catharsis, but I never get any. Complaining on the internet is as close as it gets, and it can only do so much for me.

Or go far away. But most of the time, it's like they refuse to go.

[JMX]

A lack of independence and feeling that other people or external factors control my life more than I do really causes me a lot of stress. It did when I was younger and it still does today.

[malefide]

I didn't have a particularly emotional past...as a young child I was more sensitive than I am now and less resilient, but as I matured I gained more resilience. I was extremely quiet as a child, even more so than now. I almost never spoke to anyone beside my immediate family members.

[bubbles]

My current theory attributes the emotional roller coaster from not having independence or lacking control in life. Once those things are gained, the ups and downs subside. I know it isn't that simplistic though.

I agree with that. I think being emotional is attributed to being frustrated with life, i.e., not being in control of your life. I was pretty emotional as a kid, but was very quiet at the same time. As I grew older, I supressed my emotions so that I can keep them under control, now I feel like I lack emotion. I still try to express my emotions to people so show them that I'm still human and also through writing.

[Motor Jax]

i've had my bouts of emotions growing up

especially since no one really took the time to understand me

but nothing i want to divulge in

its made me the better person i am today though